From experiencing a weight of 130 jin at the beginning of the year to gradually losing 15 jin to reach around 115 jin now, only I truly understand the bittersweet journey along the way. During the process of going from 100 jin to 130 jin, the most intuitive sensation was that even my fingers became chubby, and the fullness in my thighs and belly was very noticeable. To be honest, reaching such a high weight for the first time in my life made looking at myself in the mirror feel a bit surreal, but because of the joy brought by delicious food, I felt this experience was very real. After slowly losing 15 jin, I feel completely refreshed, and my state has become much lighter.
The opportunity for this shoot came from the cosplay outfit borrowed from my friend Danbao. Since this was challenging myself again after dropping weight from that 130-jin range, I was actually quite nervous before putting on this outfit. After all, this kind of tight white stockings and waist-cinching design is a significant test of one's figure. But once I actually put it on, I found that this Nero Bride cosplay outfit is surprisingly friendly to a Chubby cosplay body. After zipping up the corset bodice, it didn't feel constricting at all; instead, it wrapped around the curves of my upper body nicely. The White stockings on my legs are also very elastic. When squatting down in them, they beautifully accentuate the plumpness and tightness of the legs, and the resulting photos turned out surprisingly cute. The light, draping veil paired with the greatsword in my hand created a striking contrast.
During the photoshoot, it was actually quite tiring because the texture of that sword felt very realistic and it was not light at all. Squatting on the ground, holding up the sword, and taking selfies in front of the mirror while finding the right angles to showcase the outfit's details and the curvy silhouette was indeed a major physical test. The looking-back pose in the second photo tested the presentation of the neck and shoulder lines even more, which was a pose I could do with much more confidence after losing 15 jin. Fullness in front of the camera doesn't only have disadvantages; as long as you match the character's costume setting and find the right poses, it can display that unique, voluptuous beauty distinct from extreme thinness. This photoshoot experience made me realize that weight at different stages has its own unique charm. There's no need to be overly anxious about fluctuations in numbers. Trying different styles and characters, and experiencing how the body feels during different periods, actually helps one accept themselves more.
I am very satisfied with the results presented in the photos, whether it's the glossy sheen of the White stockings on the thighs or the metal zipper details on the corset—everything was captured very clearly. In the days ahead, I also want to maintain this current state, continuing to try more different sides of myself while staying healthy. To me, this is more important than anything else.